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While the formatting is a matter that I'll be shifting and adjusting with time, I'd like to open this up with a brief introduction entry. This page will serve the purpose of a sort of open-ended journal, though I hope that I may utilize it to allow for the documentation of thoughts and ideas that I put a great deal of stake into. I'm unsure as to the long term of what I'd like to catalogue, but it will likely linger in the realm of psychology, philosophy, the arts, and anything else that pertains to my studies. While I'd like to curate it, I'll also reserve my right to only be as cerebral as I feel the inclination towards. Either way, it's equally a self-indulgent exercise just as it is a creative one. Forgive me for the moments in which I inevitably wax poetic, it's a character flaw that I'm afraid I'll never shed :).
Hi, I'm Von. I'm a gal in my mid 20's studying Computer Science. As it stands, I have my two year in Psychology, which is to say that I've always had a great deal of trouble choosing just one thing to stick to. I struggle at times to understand whether or not the issue is that I have love and passion for so many aspects of life, or if I'm just trying to dig my way out of the inverse. The height of passion rarely stretches beyond a two week duration and discipline has never been my strong suit. My susceptibility to the Dunning-Kruger effect is debilitating and the development of even relatively significant obstacles can often be enough to turn me off to something. I may opt to learn from a distance in such cases, though it also means material with the least actionable demand is material that I take to most comfortably. An adversity to failure rides the consequence of an inability to properly develop skillsets revolving around such knowledge. I learn for the love of it, though no calling has gripped me in a way that can sustain me in the long term. I hold onto hope that the day will come in which I conquer this, though I accept that I may be adrift forever. It sometimes feels as though every hand I draw can only be played with a bluff, but I love life and will never stop trying to do everything in my power to make my cards work.
The optimism and love of life wins above all else, promise.